I want to scream out loud. I want to hide my head in my pillow and bury myself until this IVF process is over. This is my fourth round and i cant help feeling so worried if its going to work or not. I am hovering along the thin line of hope and fear, of anticipation and worries.
So far, my follicles are growing. To begin with, I had 7 resting follicles sized at 8, 5,4,4,4,4,4. Today after 6 injections of puregon at dose of 600iu per day, i have 9 follicles sized at 16.5, 13, 11.5, 10, 9.5, 8.5, 8, 8, 6.
I am worried. I am worried. I am worried. I need to relax and take it easy. Everything is beyond my control at this moment. Dear body of mine, pls produce excellent quality eggs, as many as you can out of those follicles.
The thing about IVF is... its not the pain.. its never about the pain! Its about the anticipation and the worrying during the wait.
Ok, i need to relax my mind, i have to believe i am trying the best for the best outcome. There is really nothing more i can do at this moment except to wait and go through with the process with optimism.
Negatism is not the way to self preservation. Optimism is!