Thursday, 12 November 2009
Sunday, 8 November 2009
I thank God for all the blessings and the wisdom to keep going..
Saturday, 7 November 2009
im going to see my baby !!!
im excited but scared too...
i am feeling so tired already, i wonder how i am going to survive the sleepless nights..
everything seems so surreal...
btw i feel like a beach whale now..
Sunday, 18 October 2009
I have decided not to try VBAC. I will opt for elective cesarean instead. I feel that its a safer route for my baby. Reason being :
1. had a previous C section hence 1 % chance of uterine rupture.
2. gestational diabetes
3. low AFI level of 7cm
On the bright side, my baby is growing well and is around 2.5kg now. I am looking forward to seeing my baby. Its been a long journey from IVF ttc till now.
I feel very blessed to be where i am now.
Thursday, 3 September 2009
I am so looking forward to having this baby in about 2 months time. Will post an entry on my labour story in due time.
Thursday, 7 May 2009
My husband who has been a little reserved in expressing his joy over my pregnancy for self preservation purposes ... is very happy and assured now. I could tell that he is very touched and glad that we finally made it to where we are now.
I am closing the chapter to my IVF journey, maybe i'll begin a new chapter somewhere else on blog sphere on my further journey of pregnancy. After all, this blog is dedicated to readers in a way of providing my personal ivf experiences and information. After a few years of ttc for child no. 1 and then two over years with a total of 5 ICSI IVFs, 1 FET and 2 heartbreaking pregnancy lost , hitting over 21,000 blog hits and finally a 12 weeks bfp, Its time to move on, its job is done.
If there is one thing i have to be thankful for for my IVF experiences. It would be that it didnt break me and made me stronger..
- My faith is stronger
- My relationship is more resilient
- I am more appreciative of life
- the ivf objective is reached
To anyone who is reading this and undergoing IVF....please take heart that no matter how short or long your IVF journey may be..... hang tough and have faith.
For your cause is noble and the end result will be sweet and rewarding, in its own special way.
Meanwhile, I will be embracing this pregnancy wholeheartedly and pray to God for his continuous blessings and protection.
Wednesday, 22 April 2009
I did my 2 hours oral glucose test challenge ( OGTT ) and i failed it. I am diagnosed with impaired glucose tolerance! Which means i am a prediabetic! There goes all the sweet stuffs, cakes, pastries, soda etc.
I bought a little machine to measure my glucose level. the brand is Accu-chek. I have to prick my fingers up to 7 times a day to monitor my glucose level. How fun! Duh! :(
I am 10 weeks now and i get to stop using crinone and pregnyl. And in 2 weeks time, I get to stop all my medications ( duphaston, progynova, proluton ). By then, my placenta should have swing into full function.
I gained some weight too. I started this cycle of IVF at 60kg, I was 62kg at 2 ww and I am 63.9kg now! Thats like a whooping 8 pounds in total.
I really need to be controlling what I eat, but seriously i didnt eat more than pre-IVF. May be my metabolism rate has slowed down alot and I am into the pregnancy fat conservation mode. I gained 28kg (60 pounds ) in my previous pregnancy. I really should be keeping my maximum weight gain to below 15kg this time round.
Wednesday, 15 April 2009
Tuesday, 14 April 2009
Wednesday, 8 April 2009
For the next many months, I have decided to focus on family and pregnancy. To officiate my first day as a Stay at home mom, I baked my first set of chocolate cupcakes together with my daughter who is turning 3 this july.
Monday, 6 April 2009
Weeks 3 & 4*: Poppyseed
Week 5: Appleseed
Week 6: Sweet Pea
Week 8: Raspberry
Week 9: Green Olive
Week 10: Prune
Week 11: Lime
Week 12: Plum
Week 13: Peach
Week 14: Lemon
Week 15: Naval Orange
Week 16: Avocado
Week 17: Onion
Week 18: Sweet Potato
Week 19: Mango
Week 20: Cantaloupe
Week 21: Banana
Weeks 21-24 (Month 5): Papaya
Weeks 25-28 (Month 6): Eggplant
Weeks 29-32 (Month 7): Squash
Weeks 33-36 (Month 8): Honeydew
Weeks 37-Delivery (Month 9): Watermelon
Wednesday, 1 April 2009
Monday, 30 March 2009
Saturday, 28 March 2009
Wednesday, 4 March 2009
A close friend asked me this question.
" What do you want for your birthday this year?"
I said " I want a positive pregnancy test, my beta test happens to be 1 day before my 32nd birthday"
my friend then asked " What if....... ?? "
I said " honestly, at this moment, i dont even want to think about the what ifs, i just want to be completely freely naively recklessly positively optimistic. "
Sunday, 1 March 2009
I had 11 days of puregon injection at 600iu daily and 4 doses of orgulatron injection. This time, my follicles grow very synchronously. My egg retrieval went really smoothly. I had 7 eggs retrieved and 5 of them were matured. This was a very good number of eggs for me, considering my low antral follicle count. Thank God for that.
I did a day 3 embryo transfer yesterday afternoon. Out of my 5 mature eggs, all 5 fertilized with ICSI and all 5 made it to day 3 with no fragmentation. I transferred 3 embryos of 9 cells, 6 cells, and 4 cells thats about to multiply. I get to have 2 of my extra embryos freeze! Its really amazing for me, this is the best IVF process I had.
I did nothing special this round. I just stop worrying so much, I rely completely on God's grace and the professionalism of the doctor. My doctor and hubby being away for that 2 days did not affect the process as it just so happened that my ER and ET were done after.
My hubby held my hands while i still lay in bed and prayed each morning during the entire IVF. He prays the most heartfelt lovely prayer each morning, about his yearning for a child, for my health, for our family. His faith gave me strength and took most of my worries away.
A few other blessings in our lives right now are, my pekingese dog who was on medication everyday for the past 2 years has finally recovered from his chronic illness and is now without medication and doing well.
My daughter had flu and recovered really quickily from it without passing it to me or my hubby during the ivf process.
Funny how, prior to beginning this cycle, we were so worryied that it manifested as a very angry me and a 'zoned out' hubby. But it turned out to such a smooth cycle.
Now i begin my 2 weeks wait. :)
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
Friday, 13 February 2009
1. beginning ivf on a friday the 13th.
2. hubby scheduled for 2 days overseas work trip around hcg trigger time.
3. gynae going away for 3 days around hcg trigger time.
4. accepting that the nurses at the clinic of choice seemed even more confused than i am.
5. very upset with workaholic hubby for being very neglectful and dismissive.
6. proceeding with the ivf knowing all of the above.
Shucks! I really dont think that starting in a happy mood or a messed up mood does any difference to my ivf outcome.
I need to be keeping my stress level down. I am keeping my eyes closed this time, whatever the outcome.. its meant to be... doesnt matter if i started IVF with great nurses or on a good date.
Damn, i am feeling so angry having to cope with this bloody anxiety again. But angry or not, in my heart, I am crying out for a favourable outcome.
Welcome to my IVF Antagonist day 1 of Puregon 600iu injection. Round 5.. I will survive and thrive.. Posterity will follow!
Thursday, 5 February 2009
I went to Shunji Matsuo Hair Salon at Wellington building and the Japanese Hair Stylist asked me what i wanted, I want a change in my hairstyle...dont want my hair to stick to the sides of my head as they were limp. He suggested he would style it short or keep it long and perm it.
I decided to just choose what i am not comfortable with as the inertia for change was high , you see, I have been wearing my hair the same way for the past 20 years.
Same goes for the colouring, i chose warm copper tone instead of my usual cool yellow based tone.
Now, i have face length short hair with a warm red tone. . . ..Still, I am not so sure about going red, I am still trying to get use to it... But i think generally it did turn out fine .
A friend text messenged me the nicest thing in my moment of neediness after i chopped off my long hair..
" Cutting of long hair signifies leaving the old behind and starting a brand new beginning. I look forward to see a brand new you with a fresh outlook in your life! "
Always been undergoing IVF as a long hair girl... I am looking forward to a successful one in roughly 10 days as a short hair girl!! :)
Saturday, 31 January 2009
Meanwhile, Happy Chinese Lunar New Year!
Saturday, 3 January 2009
1. Plan for up to 3 rounds of IVF this year to have another child.
- im in the process of looking for a new fertility doctor. I have consulted with Prof S C Ng in gleneagles www.ogpartners.com. He recommended i do a natural IVF cycle since i am a low responder. My alternatives are LC Cheng at Thomson Medical Centre and Roland Chieng of SGH.
- have a smooth pregnancy and a smooth delivery and a healthy 2nd child
2. Control my weight, improve health ( portion control, make wise choices, exercise)
- portion control ; Scoop the amount of food i need only my plate before i begin tucking in. If eating out, do not finish up whatever is on my plate during each meal
- Make wise food choices; choose healthier less calories, more nutritious food.
- do not snack on tidbits
- exercise : before ivf begins, jog for 20 mins, at least 2 times a week.
3. Get new hobbies, re-visit old ones. Relax , sit down, allow myself to get interested and read a book . 1 good book a month. Learn new skills like baking , have fun with cooking, explore...
4. Acknowledge that i am free to be me, no circumstances, no person is stopping me from living joyously me.
5. Be a supportive wife to my husband and a loving mother to my daughter